We’re Doing Just Fine, Maryam

With a plethora of my friends getting married at my age, I do get a bit worried that I’m going to be the only single lady, in like… two years time with no one putting a ring on my finger except if I do it myself (harhar).

But I realised just very recently – why should I be wasting all my energy worrying about not getting married and not on why am I not doing things what I’m supposed to do right now?

I’ve voiced out my worries to a few of my friends before but when 2014 kicked in, I felt this kick of adrenaline to just say, you know what, let’s not care about getting married for now and just live life to the fullest.

Yeah, it may sound cliched (duh), but man, I am truly losing out on opportunities to do so many things just by worrying over a single thing! I’m sure getting married is a wonderful thing because, man, I do wanna get married some day but that also doesn’t mean being single at 24 isn’t a wonderful thing either 🙂 You might also say, “Gurrrrl, 24 is too young for you to start thinking about getting married,” but try having weekends lined up with wedding invitations from your ex-classmates: it ain’t easy, man.

I’m going around meeting new people but yeah, maybe it’s just not my time yet. Probably… I’m not ready and God knows that. I fully trust His plans. So, I’m starting 2014 by listing a number of things I want to do at least before I get married:

a) Travelling alone – this has proven to be a bit difficult. Parents… permission… yeah you got the gist.

b) Bungee jumping – I have not gotten the opportunity to do this yet! Soon, hopefully!

c) Do a lot of volunteer work – I just registered for some programmes. Praying they’ll reply very soon!

d) Learn basic drum skills – I love my piano but I feel like expanding my instruments repertoire. At least a bit.

e) Have a Masters degree – still contemplating on whether to do something business-inclined or Linguistics/Literature-inclined

d) Attend a lot of Islamic talks – while I still have the liberty to move around anytime and anywhere I want to, why not?

So, the above are the very few that I’d like to do. If you stumble upon this post, why don’t you suggest other things I can do while I’m still single and mingling? Haha!

God knows how happy I am at this point of my life now. I have a great job, a great support system, my job pays the bills and a few other things I shall list as wants instead of needs…. I am truly happy. Happier than I was when I was in a relationship not too long ago.

However, as I walk down this singleton path, I am also praying everyday that He will not deprive me of the happiness of marriage. Marriage is beautiful thing – I’ve listened to so many wonderful stories but hey, as I said, maybe it’s not my time yet and I should focus on improving myself as a human and as His servant. Eventually, I will meet the right one someday, if He has written it that way.

Just a funny #foreveralone ecard below:

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P/S: Btw, I did complete the Zero to Hero: Day 4 challenge! I followed three (or is it four?) travelling blogs, one humour blog and one Kpop blog (hey, don’t judge me! I can’t help it! It’s my guilty pleasure XD)

Zero to Hero: Day Three – Breaking Out of Denial

I missed the Day Three boat yesterday because I fell sick (boohoo!) but I’m super pumped up to do both Day 3 and Day 4 challenges together!

So, the Day Three challenge is about ‘What’s On Your Mind?’ – basically what was on my mind when I first started the blog. Progress – that was the reason.

At 24, I feel like I have not really grown into my age. I find myself to be childish, too playful and at times, irresponsible. I’ve had problems accepting that I’m going to be an adult with responsibilities because honestly, I find being an adult not fun (other than getting your ahem, paycheck). I also blame my own mindset of ‘Staying Forever Young’ for acting the way I am and even though that being playful is okay at times, I find that sometimes, my behaviour doesn’t fit the environments I am in. Not saying I’m trying hard to fit in or anything (because I truly have no problems with this) but I feel like I should learn how to act like someone who is….24.

And as I have stated in the ‘Maryam’s Story’ page, I wanted to groom myself to become a better Muslimah. I ain’t getting young, that’s for sure, so I would really like this blog to be, sort of, my report book for my ‘growth’.

I want to write down those little things that I had to struggle against and not only that, I want to also write down the little joys I find in my life. Why didn’t I want to keep a journal? Obviously, I’m too lazy to hand-write everything (I’m tired from work, duh). Why did I decide to make my journey public? Because when you start a journey, you often get new surprises in life and new experiences 😉 Hopefully my blog will serve its purpose!

I want to, one day, reread all my past entries and say to myself, “Hey, you were like that once so change isn’t impossible!”. I want to, sort of, inspire people that change might be fun after all, as I tread down this journey!

Psst, I also want to show that even though you’re getting older, doesn’t mean you can’t have fun! 😉

Zero to Hero: Day Two – We’re Getting Interactive

Today’s Zero to Hero challenge is about beautifying your blog – creating a new title, a new tagline and adding a text widget!

 

So, I changed my title to ‘Confessions’ because that’s basically what the blog is about. This is basically (cue cliched description of a blog) my online diary which I’ve decided to make public with hopes people will stumble upon it and share their stories too 🙂

I’ve also created a new tagline! Previously, I had the tagline along the lines of Twitter’s 120 characters ain’t enough for me. Now, I’ve changed it a bit to make myself sound more mature (haha!) so my tagline basically explains that this blog will be about the ups and downs in my life which as I’ve explained, I would like to share with people. I seriously enjoy it when people share their sentiments, either they are aligned to mine or not.

And wee! I’ve edited my sidebar to have an ‘About Me’ widget, photos from my Instagram account and also my tweets!

 

I’m very happy that this challenge is getting more fun! It’s doing so much good for someone like me who is tech-challenged lol.

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